Last Sunday October 15th I was baptized at Grace Bible Fellowship in Sunnyvale. I gave my testimony on how I came to repent and put my ultimate faith in Jesus Christ. Below is a transcript of my testimony.
Romans 8:28 – “And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.”
I grew up in a Catholic family all my life. I never really knew God or the significance of the gospel. My church attendance always ebbed and flowed, and eventually it died down when I went to college. I grew interested in esoteric world philosophies and habitually wore my necklace of Saint Benedict, who was supposed to be my personal protector.
However the seeds of faith were planted when my family moved from Boise to Florida during my first year in college. My mom had an opportunity so they decided to go. But in less than a year they found it a difficult place to live. All sorts of bizarre events were happening and they became deeply unhappy.
By God’s providence and an incredible series of events, my mom was able to get her job back in Boise. During my mom’s flight back she sat by a woman who shared the gospel with her. At the end of the flight she left my mom with a little pocket bible. Slowly my mom read it and eventually she chose never to go back to the Catholic Church again. Instead she found a biblically driven church and began to encourage the whole family to go with her.
However I was hard hearted. When I visited home I was reluctant to go with her. Religion seemed abstract and subjective to me. One night we had a late discussion and she was trying to share the gospel with us, but I kept telling her that it was unreliable since it was written by man. I was skeptical to put my faith in anything that couldn’t be entirely proven scientifically.
Two years later I was accepted to an interdisciplinary graduate program at MIT. I moved to Boston shortly thereafter and everything changed. Every day let alone every hour became busy. All my classmates and friends lived within walking distance. Courses became much more demanding and interesting. There was a constant deluge of events and parties to attend. I helped launch a startup. I entered a serious relationship. And I traveled across New England… It was an incredible two years that I didn’t want to end.
Afterwards I moved to the Bay for my new job. At the time I knew almost nobody in the Bay. Everything became very isolating. I moved into an apartment with a roommate I had barely met. I had to quickly adapt to the sharp edged corporate world. And hardest of all I was spending countless hours trying to maintain a long distance relationship with my girlfriend from MIT. Everything seemed bleak and in the following months I lost a lot of hair. Within a few months I went from a high-high to a low-low, and God had really humbled me.
However early on, my mom had left me with a book called “I Don’t Have Enough Faith To Be An Atheist.” She kept pushing me to read it since I was at MIT. Finally I read it. The book left me with an overwhelming impression that at the end of the day we all hold beliefs. Nothing is entirely knowable by our senses alone so we must put our faith in something or someone to answer the biggest and most important questions we can ever ask. And I had many. The authors of the book finished with the most reasonable faith being in Jesus Christ. I immediately had a desire to dig further.
When I finished the book my mom sent me a link with churches of Master’s Seminary Alumni in the Bay. I used it and found several churches nearby. I decided to attend GBF and my first visit happened to be on the church’s 10th anniversary. The songs and prayers and service blew me away. I kept coming the following weeks and soaked in everything Pastor Cliff had to preach.
Then one Sunday after church I realized that God—the infinite creator of the universe—has a love for us so great that He was willing to dwell among us, give us His word directly, and sacrifice His Son so that we may come to love Him back. I realized the awesomeness of God’s infinite love through Jesus Christ and it was overwhelming.
I started attending Derek’s young adult ministry. I started reading the four gospels. I dove into other Christian literature like Colin Eakin’s book. And when I went back to Boise I went to church with my mom. Slowly I saw the bigger picture and how I was weak, idolatrous, prideful, hypocritical, ignorant, and far from God. I finally came to repent and put my ultimate faith in Jesus Christ.
Romans 8:28 was the first verse of the bible I came to truly contemplate. It continually reminds me of God’s sovereignty and His supernatural grace in our lives. However most of all, it reminds me of the incredible love that He has for us through Christ. I have found no other faith with a supernatural thread masterfully weaving together everything from Genesis to Revelation, with a love greater than Jesus Christ. He is my Lord and all praise and glory is His, now and forever.